I should be really full of myself right now, but I'm not. I'm pissed. Why?
In the past month, I have been contacted by several men that I have dated at one time in my life or another. The reasons for them contacting me has been identical - they want to start seeing me again. That's not the part that's got my attention. The thing is, they have all said to me that they are realizing that I am the one that got away. Mind you, all of the these men left me, for one reason or another. But now, after checking to see if the grass was greener on the other side of the fence, they want to hop back over and come back to me.
This bothers me a lot. I haven't changed much since I have been with any of them. Nothing new has happened in my life to make me more "appealing" in any way. I haven't changed physically. My personality is the same. Nothing is different.... Nothing. I'm pretty much the same woman I am now that I was then. So why am I now "The One"?
At first I was flattered, but then I started thinking about everything that happened... One left because he said he wasn't ready to make that kind of commitment to anyone (he got married a year later), two others were cheating on me. There's one story that's too long to tell here, and the last one? He thought I was great, but decided that he just wanted sex - I wanted more. And now, they all want me to be with them. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm bothered by this because I'm feeling like they were being "typical" men. Getting all the ass they could get, regardless of how "wonderful" I was, and now coming back to me because they're done doing what they wanted with whomever they wanted. I know that everyone is not built for monogamous relationships. I know that everyone doesn't decide to settle down at the same time; life is different for everyone. I understand how people's ideas of love and commitment are not the same. I get all of that, plus I'm sure there's probably a few other ways to look at this, but I'm still pissed.
Am I right, or am I being to hard on these guys? Why would I want someone that didn't want me? What would make things different this time around? Would I be losing on out on something good by not taking any chances? You know what they say - "First time, shame on you. Second time, shame on me."
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this. Right now, I don't want to consider being with any of them. I'm pissed...
PRESS PLAY...
In the past month, I have been contacted by several men that I have dated at one time in my life or another. The reasons for them contacting me has been identical - they want to start seeing me again. That's not the part that's got my attention. The thing is, they have all said to me that they are realizing that I am the one that got away. Mind you, all of the these men left me, for one reason or another. But now, after checking to see if the grass was greener on the other side of the fence, they want to hop back over and come back to me.
This bothers me a lot. I haven't changed much since I have been with any of them. Nothing new has happened in my life to make me more "appealing" in any way. I haven't changed physically. My personality is the same. Nothing is different.... Nothing. I'm pretty much the same woman I am now that I was then. So why am I now "The One"?
At first I was flattered, but then I started thinking about everything that happened... One left because he said he wasn't ready to make that kind of commitment to anyone (he got married a year later), two others were cheating on me. There's one story that's too long to tell here, and the last one? He thought I was great, but decided that he just wanted sex - I wanted more. And now, they all want me to be with them. I don't know how I feel about that. I'm bothered by this because I'm feeling like they were being "typical" men. Getting all the ass they could get, regardless of how "wonderful" I was, and now coming back to me because they're done doing what they wanted with whomever they wanted. I know that everyone is not built for monogamous relationships. I know that everyone doesn't decide to settle down at the same time; life is different for everyone. I understand how people's ideas of love and commitment are not the same. I get all of that, plus I'm sure there's probably a few other ways to look at this, but I'm still pissed.
Am I right, or am I being to hard on these guys? Why would I want someone that didn't want me? What would make things different this time around? Would I be losing on out on something good by not taking any chances? You know what they say - "First time, shame on you. Second time, shame on me."
I'm not sure how I'm going to handle this. Right now, I don't want to consider being with any of them. I'm pissed...
PRESS PLAY...
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