A Work In Progress

I have made the changes I needed to, and what I expected is happening. Some people I know are not happy with the change. Unfortunately, they don’t understand that I cannot always be there to help them if I don’t help myself first. I can’t worry about that right now. There are some people who are close to me that I have put aside for now, but they understand my plan of action and are supportive in what I’m doing. They know it’s for my own good

In changing my ways, I’ve been more productive and able to focus on things that needed my undivided attention in the first place. This has been a change for the better. During this time, I’ve also been able to uncover those who appeared to be in my corner, but who never were to begin with. This is also a good thing. It has allowed me to chose wisely in who I give my time to when I do.

I’m on my way…

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Song Selection #1

If Mr. Sean John - Puff Daddy - Puffy - P. Diddy - Combs handles this right, I think this group could do very well... He had 112 and New Edition, and let them slip away. I like what I've heard so far, and think they might actually have a shot.

Day 26 on My Space

Official Day 26 Website

This is their first single... PRESS PLAY

Allow me to reintroduce myself....

It's been a while since I've posted anything. I've been keeping myself busy lately. I started going out more, something I couldn't do because of problems with my right leg. I'm still looking for work, though it hasnt been going very well - but I haven't given up. And then, all of a sudden, I've seemed to lose focus. I'm not sure why, but I've been feeling scatterbrained for the past week or so. I can function in my day to day life, but certain things have become a chore for me. One of the reasons why I haven't been here. I've been wanting to write but couldn't get my words and thoughts together. Now I'm sick with a cold, so I'm dealing with that and trying to get my thoughts down right now. I'm doing better than I thought I would, as I've been putting this off for a long time.

I'm feeling better mentally. I'm feeling better emotionally. I'm hoping this post is the beginning of the end of my drought, and I can be more expressive and productive than I have been.

I'm feeling defeated...

...after putting a lot of time and energy into looking for work. I’m doing everything I should be doing, but nothing has come up. I haven’t given up, it’s just that it’s been harder than I’ve expected. I’ve been looking for new resources to tap into for open positions and have had assistance from people I know. It’s been three months since I’ve been laid-off from my job and it feels like it’s been forever. My attitude hasn’t changed. I’m still positive, but just not sure what to look into that I already haven’t. I will continue to search for something and hope I find something soon.

Wish me luck…

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Putting Myself First

I’m a giver by nature and tend to offer assistance to those close around me – friends, family, acquaintances, co-workers, etc. While there is nothing wrong with that, sometimes I forget about myself. I get to the stuff I need to eventually, but I find that sometimes I put those things off. I’m not saying I’m going to stop being helpful to others, even if they don’t give in return, but I need to focus on me first. How can I really be helpful to someone without having my own stuff in order? My needs and wants have to come first from now on. That means I will have to say “NO” more often when something is asked of me, but it doesn’t mean that I am going to forget about anyone else. I have to find a balance, and make sure I am the priority in all situations. Some people may not like it, because it will be a big change from what they are used to from me. But, I”m ready for this change. I hope they are too.

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